Well it's definitely been quite a while since my last blog post. A lot has happened. I'm divorced and remarried, my daughter is 10 and I have 3 step children who I love completely. I've been diagnosed with bipolar 2 disorder and am on medication as well as medically retired. I've discovered that any kind of stress sets me off and makes it nearly impossible to function. I guess that means that I can never function normally in real society. I have a lifestyle that most will never understand. I'm a stay at home mom and even though I am an extremely intellectual person, I can never see myself functioning in the workforce again. My medication helps in ways I never thought possible yet I still struggle and imagine I most likely always will. I don't expect "normal" people to understand. I still stay up late at night even though I know I shouldn't. I make lots of mistakes but the guilt doesn't haunt me the way it once did. I would say my life is a thousand times better yet I know I will never be the person I feel I should be.