SERIOUSLY?

If there were a world record for crabbiness, I think I would win. Why can't I just be thankful and enjoy all the wonderful things I have in my life instead of feeling sorry for myself and being a big ol' bitch! Yes, I'm a bitch. I just can't seem to kick this. I'd like to understand why I do this to myself. Even when I try really hard to forget about my emotions and force myself to just do things that would be fun, it doesn't seem to work. I don't know that I could be my friend. I'm amazed that I still have any left.